No Updates??

this is regarding the sports label of my blog.no updates?the sports industry locally or international develop rather very fast or very slow.( i am being ignorant in looking for updates in the local sports industry and too slow to catch up with international sports.) if i get a penny for every updates in sports.i am rich.

Wish List 3: Success

my 3rd wish list is a success! it going to cost me though.hehehehe.anyway i need her.i'll try to upload her pictures later.

Bold and Fearless

I checked one of my former lecturers blog.i read her posts and there is one post that interests me.it required for me to go to the link to test what it is.

this is the result...

You Are Bold and Fearless

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

i don't know whether its true or not.i have no comments about it.any comments?

Mock Teaching

yesterday, i had an interview at a local public university.it was actually a mock teaching session where i am required to demonstrate how i give lectures to the interviewers.the mock teaching session last about 15 minutes.the interviewers asked questions and i managed to answer all of their questions.i really hope that i made the cut for the second interview.the second interview will be held sometime in January.Hope that they will give me the call.

Empty Office

the office is empty right now.most of my colleagues are on leave.in the education unit only 3 personnel are left.the rest are on leave.last friday, my boss rang me and told me that i'll covering her work just for this week.this means that i am the boss at this moment.huahahaha.i'm not bragging about being boss for 1 week, i'm just wondering why i been given such responsibility while i just started working for past 3 months.i took the challenge.for one week, i'll take care of the office.

Wish List 3: Almost Achieved

How many wish lists that i have?a lot.what i posted in my blog are my short term wish list.i'll not reveil my long term wish list (one of my personal taboo.don't ask what it is.).my 3rd wish list is the most expensive from my short term wish lists.click on the link, then you'll know.i almost own it.what left is one final step to own it.u'll understand when you click on the link.

Wish List 2

my second wish list is a Sony PSP.i am looking for the lite version.now its really affordable.i am waiting for my claim at unimas to be released.i'll use some of it in my "tabung untuk psp" and "tabung untuk laptop".LOL.

Wish List 2: Sony PSP.

Sony PSP enables me to play games, watch movies and listen to mp3 whenever and where ever i am.the portability of PSP is one of the criteria that i look into.its official, Sony PSP is my 2nd wish list.

Wish List 1: Update

an update on my wish list.due to unavoidable circumstances, i will canceling my intention to purchase a HTC Touch Pro.i need to be realistic now.an handphone at a price of a laptop.so i am replacing it with a laptop.i had not decided yet.when the money arises, i'll be pondering around looking for one.

wish list 1: new laptop.

Q: why not desktop?
A: a desktop is a public computer in my house.i want a more private and personal computer. a computer that i can bring anywhere is a laptop.

end of wish list 1.

On Leave & What happened past Month

On Leave:

after 3 months working finally i can take a leave (although i will have to replace classes.it worth it).my family took a vacation trip travelling throughout main cities and towns of Sarawak.we started our journey from Kuching then to Bintulu and now Miri.now i am sleepless in Miri.i simply can't sleep (may b i slept most of the time on the road).one night in Bintulu refreshes me.i really need to have a change in my daily life.i need to meet new people and do new things.my time in Bintulu gave me oppurtunity to see and realise that..... i'll upload images later on if i can get a hold on the usb cable else next time.

Once am back to office next Teusday, i have lot of things to do and i'll be gone to a workshop the next day.huhuhuhu.i'll know what to do about my classes.

What happened past Month:

a good friend of mine got married.congrats to Diana.after all the hype of her wedding all year finally the actual day arrived.i went to the matrimonial ceremony at the church and she looked really beautiful and elegant.her husband, eugene is a seaman (i not sure what he do because what i know is that he works for a msc company and travels a lot on ships).both of them looked really nice together.the dinner that night is really nice (food is just average but the event itself is superb).we dance and cheer for their well being.good luck for both of you.

work.nothing much happened.i slowly adapting to working life and office politics.my motto is "do not disturb me.i'll bite back if disturbed".i'll try my best not to interfere with others work and personal issues.mix with colleagues but do not interfere with their work.everyone have their own responsibilities, just do yours.

relationships.none.my grandparents keep hinting when i am going to settle down.no plans for now.i not even have a special girlfriend.i am looking...

Sad Time & Day

condolences to my best friend for his lost.his nephew passed away yesterday.be strong bro.al-fatihah for eqal.aminn

Money Money Money

after posted my first wish list, i found put that money plays a big role in my purchasing power (its obvious). that brings me to my memory of ABBA. my generation might don't them, they are the famous voices of mama mia! and dancing queen. one of their famous songs is Money Money Money. enjoy the lyrics.

I work all night, I work all day, to pay the bills I have to pay
Ain't it sad
And still there never seems to be a single penny left for me
That's too bad
In my dreams I have a plan
If I got me a wealthy man
I wouldn't have to work at all, I'd fool around and have a ball

Money, money, money
Must be funny
In the rich man's world
Money, money, money
Always sunny
In the rich man's world
Aha-ahaaa
All the things I could do
If I had a little money
It's a rich man's world

A man like that is hard to find but I can't get him off my mind
Ain't it sad
And if he happens to be free I bet he wouldn't fancy me
That's too bad
So I must leave, I'll have to go
To Las Vegas or Monaco
And win a fortune in a game, my life will never be the same

Money, money, money
Must be funny
In the rich man's world
Money, money, money
Always sunny
In the rich man's world
Aha-ahaaa
All the things I could do
If I had a little money
It's a rich man's world

Money, money, money
Must be funny
In the rich man's world
Money, money, money
Always sunny
In the rich man's world
Aha-ahaaa
All the things I could do
If I had a little money
It's a rich man's world
It's a rich man's world

some of the lyric is not applicable for me. (obviously the lyric was meant for girls) but what i am trying to say is without money, all dreams will remain dreams. that comes to a conclusion that to get money, one must work.hehehehe.

Wish List 1

since now my status is no longer an unemployed bump. i can my very own wish list. (since i can afford things.at least i can save up money faster) this is the first of many wish lists that to come. my first wish list.

HTC Touch Pro

HTC Touch Pro is actually a PDA phone. to make it short, HTC Touch Pro is a computer with a size of a phone and works perfectly like a phone.

to finance my wish list requires months of savings.hehehehe. i made a few queries and i found out that my first wish list will cost me more than 3K. but i believe its affordable. i can buy the PDA phone.

TGI Friday

this is my first week in my first job.i had a few experiences during working at the company.lets start my experiences chronologically.

monday:

• report duty with CEO of the company.
• meet my supervisor and colleagues.
• spend most of the time trying to do medical check up and other things to officiate my joining to the company.
• i had a big fall since 2005 somewhere in Padungan(it was raining and slippery.btw, it still hurts till this day)

teusday:

• settle everything needed.
• set up my own pc
• get a simple job.

wednesday:

• work

thursday:

• work

friday:

• work

that's my first week in job.boring?that's what i do, WORK.i had not received my JD yet. that explained why i just simple put work there.i am expected to receive my JD after raya.wish me luck.

Masters Degree

i had plans to further my studies to masters degree.i am looking forward to start my masters degree.after securing a masters degree, only then i can move forward and be someone better than anyone else in my family.thats my plan.i want to make a statement that i should be a role model for every one in my family especially my brothers.(other than helping my parents)

First Job

finally i landed my first job this week.now i am working at a telecommunication company.this means that i have early mornings to shave, iron my clothes.i need to look good and presentable at work.like what my father said, its all about personality.i am here to impress and live up to the expectation.i had been expected to be very good.that's a good way to motivate myself in working environment.anyways, wish me luck.

Footprints in the sand

this is originally a poem written by an unknown author. many had claimed the property of this poem. few years back, someone get the property and now the patented poem is widely used in greeting cards and in songs. this poem was meant for people who are in a state of depression and need to get a hold themself together. honestly, i am in that state at this moment and i am recovering. hopefully whoever who read my blog and at the same state with me, read up the song and remember, you are not alone in the ordeal that you are facing.

footprints in the sand - leona lewis

You walked with me, Footprints in the sand, And helped me understand, Where I'm going, You walked with me, When I was all alone, With so much unknown, Along the way, Then I heard you say, I promise you, I'm always there,When your heart is filled with sorrow, And despair, I'll carry you When you need a friend You'll find my footprints in the sand I see my life flash across the sky, So many times have I been so afraid.And just when I, I thought I lost my way, You gave me strength to carry on, That's when you say, I promise you I'm always there When your heart is filled With sorrow and despair Oh, I'll carry you When you need a friend You'll find my footprints in the sand.When I'm with you, Well I know you've been there, And I can feel you when you say, I promise youI'm always thereWhen your heart is filledWith sadness and despairI'll carry you when you need a friendYou'll find my footprints in the sand.When your heart is filled withSadness and despair, I'll carry you when you need a friendYou'll find my footprints in the sand.

Keep on trying

it had been almost one month since my graduation and i am not doing so well. i have choices to choose from and each choices have totally different outcome. Any of my decisions will be made based on my considerations and advices people who i trust. i'll keep on trying to do the best in whatever i do in my life later on. i found this song from 2nd season of Bones. it is an old song by poco titled keep on trying. i don't know who is poco (never heard of them) .it reflects my overall condition by far.

poco - keep on trying

I've been thinkin' 'bout

All the times you told me

You're so ful of doubt

You just can't let it be

But I know

If you keep comin' back for more

Then I'll keep on tryin'

Keep on tryin'

And I've been drinkin' now

Just a little too much

And I don't know how

I can get in touch with you

Now there's only one thing

for me to do, that's to

To get home to you

And I feel so satiesfied when

I can see you smile

I want to confide inA

ll that is true, so I'll

Keep on tryin'

I'mThrough with lyin'

Just like the sun above

I'll come shinin, trough

Oh yes I'll

Keep on tryin', I'm

Tired of cryin'

I got to find a way

To get on home to you

I've been thingin' 'bout

All the times you held me

I never heard you shout

The flow of energy was so fine

Now I think I'll lay it on the line

And keep on tryin'

To get home to you

And I feel so satiesfied when

I can see you smile

I want to confide in

All that is true, so I'll

Keep on tryin'

I'mThrough with lyin'

Just like the sun above

I'll come shinin, trough

Yes I willOh yes

I'llKeep on tryin',

I'mTired of cryin'

I got to find a way

To get on home to you

pocketful of sunshine

read the lyrics below and you'll know how i feel now.its hard to explain how i felt now.this lyric can tell how do i felt now.

Pocketful of sunshine-Natasha Bedingfield

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine
I got a love and I know that it's all mine
Do what you want but you're never gonna break me
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me

Take me away, a secret place
A sweet escape, take me away
Take me away to better days
Take me away, a hiding place

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine
I got a love and I know that it's all mine
Do what you want but you're never gonna break me
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine
I got a love and I know that it's all mine
Wish that you could but you ain't gonna own me
Do anything you can to control me

There's a place that I go that nobody knows
Where the rivers flow and I call it home
And there's no more lies in the darkness there's light
And nobody cries, there's only butterflies

Take me away, a secret place
A sweet escape, take me away
Take me away to better days
Take me away, a hiding place

Take me away (I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine)
A secret place ( I know that it's all mine)
To better days take me away
Take me away (I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine)
A secret place ( I know that it's all mine)
Take me away, a hiding place

The sun is on my side and takes me for a ride
I smile up to the sky, I know I'll be alright
The sun is on my side and takes me for a ride
I smile up to the sky, I know I'll be alright

Convocation

i had my convocation yesterday in unimas.a very historic moment in my life.finally i had achieved something that will made an impact in my life.i started my day early (sometime at 4 am).then after preparing myself for the convocation,my family and i headed out to campus.when i arrived in campus, i started making directions to my family where they should go and when.then i registered myself to the designated assembly room.then all graduateds started to move to the main hall.the brisk walk to the hall made my feel that i am one of them.students who are going to be former student.overall, the ceremony is really remarkable (apart from there are less people coming to watch the ceremony).after the ceremony, my family and i went to the studio to take pictures of me wearing graduation robes and motar-head.

in the evening, a short and brief event in the faculty.i received 2 awards (i didn't expect that).in my next post, i'll upload pictures that my bros and took (including my awards).anyway, at this moment,i am enjoying my time as a graduate (while looking for a job).

Graduation

this is the lyric of the day.this song or lyric was meant to be sang or heard during graduation day.yesterday, i had my convocation.i received an advice from one of my lecturer,he said that what really important in life after degree is social networking.befriend every one,more friends you have,more experience and connections you will get.anyway,enjoy the song.

Graduation (Friends Forever)

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We would get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Shortlisted

i am in for 2nd interview at an oil and gas company and i had my 2nd interview at a local college last friday.it went ok.i have no comment to it.this week i'll start teaching part-time in campus as lab demonstrator.whai i earn from the job is enough for me to add some in my expenses.that's it for now.there is some other PRIVATE stuff lingering in this label that i can't share.someday, i'll share it.later.

1 week

i had been 1 week since that incident happened.after it happened,i felt extremely disapointed but i am happy to made the move.the incident and move, lets make it only certain people and the person involved in this know. its not a public affair.it has a big PRIVATE sign written all over it.anyway, in response to the incident, the new label shows how i felt after 1 week.i am lucky to have my best frens and bros around me.without them may be i'll be still lost and not be able to recover after the incident.i had their support.that's what i can say and i am very thankful for that.

now its the time to improve myself as a person.get a job and work.in work label will explain what do i meant.anyway,i spend most of my day at my best fren's place.we 'discussed' a few important things and spend most of the time testing and evaluating erry's brand new and shiny ps2.LOL.although others might say: 'ps2?that thing still around?' or 'ok.fine.i had just bought ps3' . but for pc gamers, game consoles are kid's stuff.but its some good and healthy way to filter out the stress rather than drinking and smoking.anyway, that's it for now.later.arriverderci.

Lyrics

this will be the new label in my blog.every entry in this label or category reflects my mood during the entry or how do i feel.so, read up and try guess how do i fell now....

Daughtry-Over You

Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me

Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo!
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me

[Repeat Chorus]

I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you

And I never saw it coming
I should have started running
I’m finally getting better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!

The day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you…

Temporarily Terminated

this category is temporarily terminated due to unavoidable circumstances.lets say that my love life had taken the back seat in this journey.

Work

shortlisted.that's what i can say about my employement status now.i was shortlisted by a company.i really hope to get the job.i also applied at otehr places.hope for the best.now i am self-employed.its more to providing services to the azni clan.i am now a part time driver,part time SA.for now i am happy for my job.LOL

Morning, Noon & Night

as you read the title, you might think about Sidney Sheldon's novel by the same title.however, this entry has no relation to the novel (i have not read the novel anyway).friday as always a rather short day for me.most of my activities are more laid back during fridays and every friday night i always stay up late either stay at home or go out with friends.yesterday,i spend most of my morning at home in front of my laptop.i am rather busy managing Leeds (i am an avid FM fan.this time i am managing Leeds United).noon was meant for friday prayers (at least up till 2pm).after 2,i can be found inside the family's mpv.i drive around kch doing errands for my parents.back home around 7 then at 9 i am out again.this time for movies.Hancock.like the movie.if there is a drunken kung fu style,in this movie, there is a drunk unshaven and flithy superhero (he shaved and sober by the end of the movie.he don't have to use shavers to shave.just need some shaving cream.LOL.).

then come the night.didn't sleep much last night.i talk with my love will dawn.a heated discussion that was meant just for the two of us to know.no need to share that.but we are cool.fyi, its not a fight.barely asleep when i was waken up by my bro to fetch him to tuition class and school.

now here i am to start the cycle of morning, noon and night all over again.hope today is an interesting day.have a nice day.

Latest Update

for today's entry its was not labeled as 'Daily Diaries' but more to 'Monthly Diary'.its been a while since last time i updated my blog.a lot happened in the past month.some are nice and some are not so nice.

one of the nice part is that my love stayed a few days at my parents place.she spend roughly 4 days in my place (i stay with my parents) and we spend time together as a family.however, the not so nice part was that my parents were quite agree with how i handled her.so i need to improve more.show more authority.i managed to convinced my parents that both of us will be more sensible at home and she will improve herself in teh future.

the other nice part was i received an interview offer from one of oil and gas company.i don't keep my hope high though but i prayed that i am to be shortlisted for 2nd interview.but i'll apply at other companies and agencies for job vacancies.it doesn't hurt to try.

another nice part was i am officially confirmed to graduate this year.i am prepared for my graduation.the not so nice part was i am not that happy to graduate.i felt normal.i felt there's nothing to celebrate as i am just going to receive a piece of paper that i have a degree.i used to imagine that after graduation, my morale will be up.the celebration will cover all the fireworks and all night partying (that not likely to happen) but at least the atmosphere will be jolly and happy.it is very different as currently the atmosphere is gloomy and sad.may be one of the main factor for this gloomy and sad mood because i am unemployed yet.

that bring me to another not so nice part, unemployment.i need to get employed fast.employment means money and money means happy (many won't agree with me about this.may be there'll be a dabate about how money can give happiness.read this erry and afzan.LOL).there's nothing much that i can do now.there's something instored for me in the future.i just need to look for it.

that's all for now.cheers.have a nice day.

Oily Business

Due to current petrol and diesel subsidies became unbearable for the government to bear,the prices was increased from RM 1.91 to RM 2.70 for petrol while diesel was increased to RM 2.58 from RM 1.58.this means that daily product prices will increase up to RM 2.the obvious reasons are petrol and diesel price hike.seems that the inflation rate might raise as more demand from consumers will be received as there are less supply to meet the demands.reasons?high petrol/diesel price = high operational cost = high price.the domino effect will sweep through out the country.fellow citizens beware.watch your budget.

the next issue that might happen next is salary.hopefully at the very least new salary plans will rise.the current salary plan soon will be just sufficient or not enough to support daily cost of living.seems that the government try to tell the citizens to learn save their money and spend wisely.no better way to teach people the value of money.

anyways, i support the government's move.let's teach citizens out there hows life with less or no subsidies.later...

Countdown...

d-day: 12th June 2008
time: 1900H
venue: KIA

days to d-day: 8
emotion status: happy, nervous, active, patiently waiting
mental status: void, silence, active
physical status: active

French Open

French Open.

my ex knocked out of the french open.sad story,losing to Safina (Marat Safin's sister) on the 4th round.seems that Roland Garros had been her only grand slam that she failed to win.she tried and she failed.better luck next year Maria.its sad to know that she failed to win the French Open.at the very least she reached to the final.

for me, hopefully my other ex, Ana Ivanovic will reach the finals against Jalena Jankovic.clash of the serbs.few years ago women tennis dominated by the belgian girls.now most of mainly dominated by Russian and Serbian girls.

as for men's event, Nadal and Federer will be in the finals.the dark horse of the event, Gael Monfils.the french player is the surprised the world by defeating Ivan Ljubicic.either way, Nadal and Federer will be in the final.

2 Days of Rainy Days

for the past 2 days kuching had been wet.it had been raining for the past 2 days.very nice though.today i'll know soon enough.anyway,few things happened.i did summer/spring cleaning yesterday and i slept most of the time the day before.i hate it when it comes to cleaning (not that i'm being a bum but its the dirt that i need to clean).i cleaned my house compound including the drainage (which caused be to accidentally drank the water due to splashing.discussing).all the grime and dirt cleaned.very tiring.

my love went to camp majidee for the cadet interview.the trip took over 2 hours.she seems to be confident to seal the interview.whatever happened i'll support her.anyway, i'm dying of boredom and waiting.i can't wait for my finalized results.

that's all for now.later....

Countdown...

d-day: 12th June 2008
time: 1900H
venue: KIA

days to d-day: 11
emotion status: happy, nervous, patient
mental status: void, silence, active
physical status: active, semi-dorman

VB

i received a text from my lecturer asking about the project that i'm involved in.clearly i had done nothing much but i had the engines ready.i just need to construct the interface and database.i had to complete everything by 13th June.2 weeks to complete 2 projects.i hope i have ample time to complete it. i did 25% of the project i think i can do it.

wish me luck...

Wedding, Void & Future

today i went to my aunty's wedding.i did a few works to help.in malay weddings, invited guest will come and greet the host.then the host will direct the guest to eat after wishing the bride and groom well and congrats.what happened today was the 'majlis bersanding'.that the ceremony where both bride and groom would sit on a 'pelamin' (a small alter for them to be seen.just like the king and queen when their subjects want to meet them).both bride and groom are called 'raja sehari' as everyone are itching to see both of them.after the guest meet them, they were given a feast by the host.that where i came in.i helped in serving the foods to the guest.very tiring as the total number of guest that need to be served were 800.by noon, i headed back home.

void day.i felt as if i am inside a white room with all white furniture in a white clothes.i felt the empty.i don't know why.emptiness filled my day.i felt down today.may be because of what happened at last night.what happened last night made me reconsider my future plans.made me think all of my efforts for a better future were not appreciated and needed.that makes me think more of myself and less of some other stuff.i know where i'm going to lead my future but the content of my future became blurry.that's why i decided to change my plans and put less on some other things.i decided to expand myself.i'm afraid that to expand, i need to put a few things a side.for me everything is important and i can't put important things a side.

i'm simply don't know what to do... help...

i am missing...

i miss my love...
i miss my bro...
i miss my hani...

that's how i felt today.i miss them.however, there are important dates that i really look forward to.12th June,i will meet zati and hani again.23th June,my bro is coming back.can't wait for that day.for me waiting is the most painful cruel punishment that can be done to me.just make me wait,you'll see the other side of me.the side that make your day a bad day.i hate waiting and made people waiting.anyway i miss them badly.uhuhuhuhuhu.....

Wake up text...

a wake up text is just enough to make my day a mess.i have to complete 2 system in a week time.i had a rough idea of what should i do.however, i need to think of other details that are needed to complete it plus the technical part of the project.anyway i am confident that i can complete the project as required.

yesterday i also had a wake up call.its about a big project that i need to complete in a time that i never know (may be i'll know when more details are spared).for this project, i need to refer more programs and learn new techniques.i am dying to learn AJAX.may be i'll use AJAX in this project.then again, depends with the team's decision.anyway there are only 2 team members so far.LOL.not really a team of any sort.just a group of 2.hopefully from the project, a new company will rise.from there i'll develop myself.

this leads to another balancing act that i'll doing.should i get the lecturer post, i need to balance between my work and business.hmmm.this time i'll balance it even better (i learnt from my experience with my fyp).i learnt something there.discipline.no need to elaborate that.

anyway, cheers...

Tennis and Sleepy Day

today was tennis coaching day.every saturday my family goes to the tennis court for some coaching. i did terribly today as i skipped 2 weeks of coaching.bad forehand and even worse backhand.i need to practice more.last night i woke up at 3am.i just simply can't sleep after that.that made me really sleepy for the whole day.more sleep less eat.that's what happened today.after coaching sessions i went home and took a nap.my day afterwards basically just a void.nothing done and yet tons of things to be done.i am just simply being a bum today.a useless bum.

i had a wake up text from my lecturer (not a wake up call.texting just enough.LOL).it had something to do with my tons of work.i need to start the work today.at least i started designing it (LOL.lazy bum). as usual i had my weekly dosage of manga.without it, i'm lost.LOL.

later...

Love

This new category mainly about my relationship with my love ones; my family and zati.in any relationships, there always fights and quarrels.all of the fights and quarrels (i call it discussions) are ways to know and understand each other more.but beware, if discussions failed to conclude, war will erupt. that's how i handle my relationships. that's all for now.more will come in the future...

Results & Graduation

my results were out few days ago.from my results, i can be considered as a B student.my result ranges from C to A (that covers all possible passable grades.LOL).last semester i took two courses; fyp2 and technopreneurship.i passed both papers.alhamdulillah.this means that i am able to graduate this year.if all goes well, my convocation will be held this august.after years of learning,finally i have a degree.masters degree will have to wait for another 2 years.

my friends will also graduate this year.this year, class of 2003 will end as all classmates finished their studies.although some of us graduated 1 or 2 years later (class '03 supposed to graduate on '06) but what matters the most is we completed our studies.

good luck for all...

First Interview & Job Prospect

today is my first interview at one of private college in Kuching.i applied for the lecturer post there.i was being interviewed by the manager and AM. they asked a few question and i asked a question.i am not sure either i am to be listed in the second interview or not.i just hope that i am listed as i need a job at this moment.

although my final semester had just finished and i should be relaxing or take a leave for a while but i am unable to relax because it will make me restless.i need a job and money (thats the main reason. LOL). i am waiting for other places to reply my application and i am sending more to other places as well.i am also applying to work for the government.hope that i can get a job by convocation....

Patience and warm days

for the past few weeks Kuching had been a very warm city.tested my patience that's why at this time of the year, i had been very moody and tense just like today.although i had a good start for my day but i always have trouble during mid day.there is always something happened just to make my day a bad day.at this time of the year, patience is very important.my patience always being tested day by day.although most of the time i lost it but its better than before.my patience had been thinner than before so don't push your luck if i am losing my patience.later in the evening today the day seems to be cooling down.i cooled down slowly.

at the very least, there is shelter for me protecting myself from the heat.my house and room.at the confort of my house, i am lucky for it.that's it for now.later

First Entry

this is my 1st entry.hopefully its not the last.the content of this blog mainly about my thoughts and view of my daily life.what did i do, what did i think about certain issues developing in my worlds. as a whole, what i wrote here is my thoughts and opinions.by far, my life is a hectic and fast paced life.sometimes i rarely have time for myself.since i finished by degree, i managed to have my own personal time.a time where i spend with my family, my love one and my friends.this is the time for me to take a short rest before starting a new chapter in my life.working life.

may be you might think that my blog mainly about my view and it may be meaningless. for me it is a way to express my feelings.i had other ways to do so but this a good way to be heard.please forgive me if this blog hurt anyone out there.its just my honest and earnest opinion. in the future, my posts will be about my daily life and my opinions.